Everyone needs love. A baby needs love to thrive. A pet needs love to grow. We all need someone to love. This may be a parent, a child, a pet or a significant other. Attention is wonderful for the ego. It is very hard to be a single mother. You can love your children, but it is not the same as having a significant other. Since the summer, I have had two unsuccessful relationships. When I was in them, I was happy, I was loved. In some way or another I was being cherished or so I thought and that was all I needed. I couldn't eat. I had no appetite. I swam in the summer and lost weight due to not having an appetite and exercising. I had to make myself eat at times. That first relationship lasted about a 1 1/2 months. When it was over, I was a mess and once again, I couldn't eat. So I still lost weight. I cried a lot. I felt unloved and unwanted.
Then I thought, I'll try on-line dating. A lot of people had met their significant others this way. It was the way to meet people in this day and age. I wasn't sure if it was the right time. Wasn't it too soon? Wasn't I still hurting from my summer fling? I was encouraged by friends, because life is too short. Life is too short. I am no spring chicken, so I was off. Initially, I just sent out messages. I got some responses from as far away as Morocco and as close as Gaithersburg. Then something happened, I got a message from a man and so started what should've been a successful relationship. Again I couldn't eat. I lost weight. I was getting attention. I was loving it. He was a smooth talker. He was smooth like velvet. Too smooth as it turned out. He asked me for money and so began my downward spiral. It was almost really bad, but with some quick thinking from my son and my family, it came out that his passport was fraudulent and he had been lying about all of it. I was upset. Not as upset as I thought. I pushed it to the back of my mind. Talking about it is still really painful. I could eat again, but by now I was used to eating less. I lost weight.
Back on the proverbial dating horse, which brings me to today or really yesterday. Yesterday I was doing my grocery shopping. Let me backtrack a week. December 1, I saw a profile that I liked and a photograph of a man with the most amazing blue eyes I had ever seen. I thought there was no way that this guy would be interested in me. I was wrong. So back to yesterday. I was doing my grocery shopping and I got a call from a number I didn't recognize. It was a flower delivery guy. I was getting flowers from my new man! I got a dozen long stemmed, red roses in a vase. There was a card too! I am incredible happy. I have lost a total of 43.4 pounds and I think that being in love helps you lose weight!
I don't know if it's the positive attention (or in some cases lack thereof), but in any case it worked/is working. I still have about 28 more pounds to lose and I don't expect to keep losing weight at the rate I have been.
I am in desperate need of clothing that fits. This is not a problem I thought I would ever have. I have lost weight before, but not this much in such a short amount of time. I need a belt for elastic waist pants!
I can't afford to buy a whole new wardrobe at each size change, but I will have to hit the thrift store. Wednesdays is 1/2 off at the Salvation Army!
As my Pop-Pop always said, "Bye for now."
